We love you Jesus!

Sometimes my soul is full of more sorrow than joy. Even though I have been brought into divine intimacy with my sovreign king, I still experience great hurt and disappointment. What is beautiful is that God supplies such sweet balms to and for my soul. In the midst of discovering such ungodliness and soul sickness in the people that God has called us to minister to, Jesus reminds me that He gave us this ministry by His mercy. I have been hurt and scared by the immensity of need that this church and community have to be all that God commands and desires. I have also seen in the face of this difficulty a desire to fix or soothe myself with a myriad of distractions. What God has shown me in the last several weeks has been the emptiness of sin in a fresh way and He has torn away another layer of scales that I might see more fully His glory. Beholding him is transforming me. I am so thankful that my salvation is really God's salvation. He is the author and perfector of it. He is the creator and sustainer of this gracious relationship that we have. I have nothing. Never have. Never will. He has everything and in Christ God has supplied and is supplying all I need for life and godliness. What a joy to know when everything else changes, God is a rock, a fortress that cannot be shaken. We so want to see peoples' eyes twinkle when they hear of Jesus and His grace towards us. We long for the happiness of God to permeate our lives and everyone that we come into contact with. And knowing that we can rest in God who alone has secured us for Himself, we are free to pursue and enjoy Him even in the face of great opposition and pain. To whom who is the beginning and the end, may there be great glory. For us who are His may there be great joy.
Grace and peace